Be loud, make some noise

I’ve been quiet on the Depp/Heard trial online, for many reasons. Most of all for my own sanity. The whole thing was very triggery for me. On the night the verdict came out I felt shaken up, tearful and most of all, I worried for what this meant for women for the future. More on this worry later. 

Why was it all so triggery? I can relate to Amber’s plight of being threatened with being silenced and with legal action by someone who doesn’t want you to talk about what went on in the relationship that may not show them in a positive light. Her recollections of what went on were also resonant with some of my experiences long ago. 

Emotional and/or physical abuse is as much about control as than blows that are inflicted. It involves destroying the other person’s confidence, support structures, reputation and finances, including their ability to earn. It often doesn’t end after the relationship ends, as that is when the perpetrator feels that they have lost control and don’t want to relinquish it. Hence why the most dangerous time for a woman in terms of the possibility of serious violence in an abusive relationship, is when she is leaving. 

In my training with Dr Jessica Taylor on the psychology of victim blaming of women subjected to male violence, and in my reading of her and other’s research, I have come to understand several key points that are relevant when it comes to the case and the situation out there for women in general. 

There is no such thing as the perfect victim. Even when a stranger leaps out from the bushes in broad daylight somewhere crowded, threatens you with a weapon and assaults you, even when you were wearing a boiler suit rather than, god forbid it, something that shows your figure, and even if you were stone cold sober, a prosecution and conviction is not guaranteed. Less than 2% of reported rapes result in a prosecution in this country (UK), and about 80% of the time when a girl or woman tells her own parents she has been raped, they blame her. Only last week the police here started saying they would stop investigating a victim’s personality, history and so on as a way to discredit her testimony, and instead focus on the perpetrator.  Violence against women is the only time when it is far more normal for the accuser to be immediately under the microscope, instead of the accused. 

Amber Heard was far from the perfect victim. She stood up for herself and sometimes got angry, which is known as reactive abuse. Perhaps if you were abused regularly, you would fight back at some point. Every single person I know who grew up in an abusive household or who has been in an abusive relationship, has seen the victim lose their temper, shout back, or even hit back occasionally. If a victim doesn’t, then the question is asked of why they didn’t fight back? Damned if you do, disbelieved if you don’t.

Amber had clear, extensive evidence, confession and witnesses, and had back up from therapists and medical professionals who had treated her throughout the relationship; again you’re damned if you do gather evidence as this is apparently plotting and manipulative, damned if you don’t – ‘there’s no evidence’. 

She also didn’t leave right away, thus failing the ‘why didn’t she leave?’ point. Perpetrators aren’t awful the whole time. They swing between being nice and apologetic, with pleading and promises to change forever, and always being as charming as possible in public, and then being bloody awful again. It keeps you on your toes and living in hope that the nice side will win over, but never knowing when things will kick off again so you tread on eggshells never knowing when things will kick off again. Your behaviour is also controlled in this way. Just don’t rock the boat, don’t speak up, don’t criticise, or it’ll be your fault that they lost it again. 

We like to think we would behave differently if we found ourselves in that situation. 

We like to think that our behaviour can protect us from ever being a victim or stuck in an abusive relationship. This is a core tenet of victim blaming tactics; if the victim’s behaviour is the reason the violence happened, then we can stop ourselves being abused by not behaving like that. This is totally false. Abusers are going to abuse. What you wear, drink, who your friends are, what you say, will not protect you from being abused. 

Victim blaming will start with behaviour, often what the victim was wearing, doing, drinking or saying. Then their character is picked on. Women being put down for being too emotional, hysterical or more has been going on for centuries and is part of the general patriarchal structure that keeps women down and compares them negatively to men. 

Enter stage left psychiatry, and women being given speculative diagnoses, often personality disorders, to discredit them and paint them as unreliable witnesses. We saw this happen to Heard but not to Depp – where were the psychiatrists lining up to analyse and diagnose him despite his well-known addictions, abusive tendencies and more? Men are much more likely to be excused their bad behaviour because of ‘mental illness’ (see every mass shooting in the US for evidence) whereas any sign of mental illness in women is seen as a sign that they cannot be trusted at all. This scenario plays out in family courts the entire time, in a depressingly predictable and horrible way. 

It is vital to recognise that perpetrators will try to convince everyone that they are in fact the true victim. This can be because accountability feels like an attack when you’re not used to facing the truth and consequences of who you are, what you’ve done and the true impact of your behaviour. 

This pattern of a perpetrator attempting to turn the tables and convince everyone they are the victim is described as DARVO – deny, attack the victim, reverse victim/offender perception. Sometimes they might minimise or deny their own actions, play dumb and point to their victim’s reactions, and then act surprised when the evidence of their bad behaviour is laid out. In the Depp/Heard trial, this approach was successfully used by Depp’s team. Amber’s reactive abuse was seen as proof that he was actually the true victim, and the overwhelming evidence and confession of his abuse discounted. I’m not saying she is perfect. But no one has to be perfect in order to be a real victim. Could any of us stand up and say we have always been ‘perfect’? No. And this does not and cannot discount our ability to actually be a victim or our testimony, witnesses and more. 

The efforts on social media especially on Fb and TikTok to discredit Amber and mock her were enormous. Vast amount of money was poured into swaying public opinion, and the jury were not required to stay off social media in the evenings. They were not making their decision based on only the evidence in the court room, but also on extensive and disgusting propaganda. What kind of society mocks a woman’s distress when she describes serious sexual assault? The fact that the trial was televised is in itself abusive, and part of the ongoing control of her entire life, career and future. 

What the trial was really about was the silencing of women who speak up about abusive men. Depp has been an icon for decades because of his acting success, and this seems to have blinded many to the possibility that he could also be abusive. Many of his exes going as far back as Jennifer Grey, Winona Ryder and so on have talked about his temper and controlling tendencies. Their staff saw it going on and testified. His friendship with Marilyn Manson, who has talked openly about his disdain for women, desire to hurt them and so on, and the language Depp used about Heard describing his desire to physically abuse her, are also not up for debate. They are undisputed facts. True victims do not express these kinds of desires. Not in banter, not privately. This is the language of a misogynistic, controlling abuser, pure and simple. 

We have seen this pattern before many times with powerful, wealthy men paying off accusers and making them sign NDAs. Trump, Epstein, Weinstein et al. Research shows that 97% of the time when women say they have been raped or sexually assaulted, they are speaking the truth. False accusations are the exception, not the rule. 

Remember that Heard was much younger than Depp when they met, and she was relatively unknown and he was already a mega star. The power dynamic was already set up from the start. 

In the UK trial, 12 of the 14 counts of abuse were found to be true. The Sun newspaper was found to have been right to call him a wifebeater. The US case was about Amber’s right to speak up about it, and in a massive blow for freedom of speech, it would seem that she has been silenced and cannot speak up. Apparently, it’s ok that millions of people are talking about it all online, but she mustn’t.  She is still being controlled. 

The implications for this trial are huge. Women without such good evidence or any witnesses may be more hesitant to come forward, putting themselves and children at risk of further abuse. Some may even die. Abuse can and does ender in murder; a woman is murdered every 3 days in this country alone by a man, and the majority of the time it is domestic violence, not a stranger or random attack. The fear of being sued for defamation is more real than ever, and this threat has become an effective way to silence women and stop them reporting abuse, and thus ensure they experience more of it. The possibility of being publicly torn apart is as likely as ever, which is a continuation of the abuse. 

Refuge, the domestic violence charity, stated that ‘the verdict sends a chilling message to many survivors of domestic abuse that their experiences are invalid and open to public scrutiny.’

It is time for women to be believed, especially imperfect victims because we are all imperfect. It is time for rich, powerful men to stop getting away with whatever they can pay their way out of. The erosion of women’s rights has to stop and move forwards again. Looking at you, the US in particular, not just the extreme restrictions in Afghanistan and so on. 

It is time for judges in these cases to be properly trained in domestic violence patterns and nuances as well as victim blaming tactics, so that they can see through all this bullshit. No future trials should be televised. Juries must be kept away from all social media and the internet during trials. Speculative psychiatry as a mechanism of discrediting women must end and be seen for the nonsense that it really is. It must be made safe for women to speak up, and to keep themselves and their children safe; the policing and legal systems must become trauma informed so that victims are never retraumatised by the process of trying to bring their attackers to account.

All of this must be seen within a framework of patriarchy, systemic misogyny and sexism, women being seen as inferior, and men’s opinions being seen as the gospel truth while women’s testimony being questionable and up for debate right from the start. 

Don’t let what has happened stop you from speaking up. Don’t let it stop you reporting. Don’t let it discourage you from fighting for change. Let your anger, despair and disappointment become fertiliser for action to create change. The whole point of the case was to keep women quiet. 

So be loud.

Make noise. 

Support other women speaking up. Stick together. Stand up for truth, justice and a world where women are valued, believed and safe. Support others doing it. I know I will be. This piece is just the start.